What happens when your breath lives in your chest? When anxiety is your first response to the unknown? When tightness and judgement replace openness? — Do you run? Do you submit to the relentless waves of depression? Do you give up and in to the fear of what you can’t control? — You can invite … Continue reading How can you love yourself deeper today?
18 days ago: I moved out of the house that I have been coparenting in with my 21 month old daughter's father over the last year and a half. I started packing at 9 am and the moving van pulled away at 4 pm. It's go time for me as a full time stay at … Continue reading SAHM life + Single Mom life
I've always struggled to find the RIGHT words. I've never struggled to find words. In fact, the opposite. Silence is harder. At least in person. It has been easy for me to ignore this blog for a year. So many excuses..the baby needs my attention, Netflix is better than writing, who wants to hear what … Continue reading and so it begins again
I could hold you forever. In fact, for the majority of these first four weeks of your life, I have hardly put you down. You've blown my heart into a million pieces and reassembled it into a thing of beauty, much larger than before, and overflowing with love, patience, and joy. Your cries and your … Continue reading Dear Daughter
Wearing a diaper and loving it. Sleeping for two hours and feeling as though it were twelve. Losing 20 pounds in a week and a half and then staring at the fat on your abdomen knowing that the last 20 pounds are going to take some work. Being scared of bowel movements but rejoicing when … Continue reading Postpartum Is
She didn't pass on this ear, let's try again, this happens all the time on this machine. Let's try a few more times. It's probably faulty equipment, this machine is really old. I'm sure she'll pass on the other machine. It's most likely mucus or amniotic fluid in her ear, it will clear up by … Continue reading Waiting for Bad News | Praying for a Miracle
And just like that, I'm a mommy. This evening at 6:52 pm, my baby girl will be 5 days old. Time is already flying by, and I'm not even sure that the adrenaline from the birthing and new mommy duties has worn off yet. ** it's August 18th now and this blog is still in … Continue reading Pineapple Smoothies + Eggplant + Back Labor => My Daughter
My hypnobirthing mantra right now as I'm 40 weeks and 4 days pregnant. She'll arrive when she is ready.
A lot is going on. I certainly don't have any right to complain. Especially in light of the tragedies around the United States and globally with terrorism & racism, and the incredibly heartbreaking violence occurring because of hatred. It is truly a difficult time in the world. These current events dwell heavy on my mind as … Continue reading Natural Childbirth, Being Single, and What Being at Peace Means
I'm 38 weeks and 5 days today, and this little girl is getting ready to make her entrance into life outside of the womb. I truly can't wait. While I haven't posted online much this month, I have journaled during these last few weeks more than I have throughout the pregnancy, which is better than … Continue reading Fear & Pregnancy