I've always struggled to find the RIGHT words. I've never struggled to find words. In fact, the opposite. Silence is harder. At least in person. It has been easy for me to ignore this blog for a year. So many excuses..the baby needs my attention, Netflix is better than writing, who wants to hear what … Continue reading and so it begins again
Ella passed the ABR test in both ears. Her cochlea is ok in her right ear. She still failed the initial test. The audiologist wanted to do the same test again before the ABR test and Ella again failed. This didn't concern the audiologist as much as it had concerned us and she assured us … Continue reading Relief.
I'm 38 weeks and 5 days today, and this little girl is getting ready to make her entrance into life outside of the womb. I truly can't wait. While I haven't posted online much this month, I have journaled during these last few weeks more than I have throughout the pregnancy, which is better than … Continue reading Fear & Pregnancy
If you had asked me how many posts I made in June I would have guessed 3 or 4, but not one. Yet, I only posted once. I think about writing every day and every day there is something about my pregnancy journey or journey in my life that I want to share...I'm feeling sad … Continue reading What “Becoming Mother” Feels Like
How is it already May 11? -- and now May 13? (Apparently I'm on a write, and then throw to drafts spree) This month is flying by, I finally decided in April to drop the pursuit of a full time position and instead settle for 2 part time flexible jobs that I can get by … Continue reading Third Trimester Is Here
...the tough get going... Hey Mommas, No, they don't get going as in they run away. They get the ball rolling. They take action. They get stuff going. I am coming to realize just how true this statement is. It's really easy to run and hide, it's really difficult to stay and work through a … Continue reading When the Going Gets Tough
Ok, where did yesterday go? I totally didn't realize I didn't post until about 7 am this morning. Dangit! One day away from my 7 days straight of posting. Starting that up again today as well as putting a daily reminder on my phone to tell me to get writing. (this is the "oops!" of … Continue reading Baby Registries, Yoga, and “Oops”s!
I almost didn't post today, but I gave myself ONE goal this week, to post each day, and goshdarnit, I will post every day. I'm constantly caught off guard by how UP I can feel one day (such as yesterday) and how DOWN I can feel another (such as today). What I'm realizing is that … Continue reading Dealing With Anger
Wow, I REALLY fell off the grid. I'm not surprised, but I am disappointed that I didn't at least get on here to share what's been going on. It feels too raw, too hard, too messy, and too ...uninspiring. A friend encouraged me to share anyway, so I'll see if I can collect this mess … Continue reading Moving Forward
This week I've asked myself tough questions and fought hard for my happiness. There have been more downs than ups and returning to a baseline seems questionable but I choose to do it anyway. So for today, I'm going to share with you what I am thankful for in the middle of this time of … Continue reading Thankful In Spite.